hi everyone how r u?  I hope u r doing better than me I feel like crap I spend half my time thinking about whether or not I should go back to my old life I felt happier then at least even though it came from me hurting myself but it was better then I am now.  I hate my life and I just hate life in general I hate all the ppl in it and I hate myself if u r my friend tell me cuz I need to know although no one even reads this anymore no one reads this I should just quit.  why don't I why do I do alot of the things I do I hate life in general life sux I hate ppl accusing me of lieing.  if u think I am a liar why don't u just stop pretending to be my friend and leave it would b much easier if u did.  I am in an extemely bad mood and I really want to go back to my old life but u know what I won't cuz I know at least one person cares about me.  I don't know about all the others but I have come to the conclusion that no one cares about me and that I have no friends if that isn't true tell me or don't tell me it won't impact me whatsoever cuz my life sux either way w/e I am gonna leave now and see if anyone bothers to read this anymore laterz
~*~FeRnE~*~

ok hey everyone so like monday marin spent the night at my house and atempted a makeover but it didn't work out to well but the next morning we redid it and it looked really good I can't wait to get the pictures back and I am goin to change my profile pic so be alert if u want to see what I look like wit makeup on lol we watched titanic best movie ever I say I was sad at the end and I always want to cry when I watch it

I will write more later

much love FeRnE

Currently Playing Wait & Bleed By Slipknot see related

- wait and bleed

hey everyone sup sup well lets see I had a fun b-day minus my fucking mom like getting mad about everything u should do this and not to mention ok mike and dino came to my house on friday mike got here first and like 2 hours later dino shows up but my mom sends me and mike to wait out front for dino and I am like practically sitting on top of him and my mom didn't seem to mind at all as long as I wasn't doing anything like kissing ok then on friday while mike was playing pool I was sitting on the couch trying to fix my stupid karaoke machine so that it would actually play the whole CD and mike comes and sits down next to me while the other team was taking there turn at pool and I was adjusting the postion I was sitting and my mom walks in and is like u'r getting a little to cozy on the couch and seperates us and I am like I was just adjusting the postion I am sitting we weren't that close and yet she had no problem at all with us being that close on friday she pissed me off so much but hey lets see

my b-day I got
marin- shirt really cute
marissa- shirt really cute also
beka- switchfoot CD aswome
and that is all so far my friend michelle is giving me mine on like saturday and mike when he gets back from vacay can't wait I am happy

much love FeRnE

hey everyone was up well lets see I went to the movies today wit mike marin marissa zorob jena isaiha rebecca chad and like 2 other ppl I can't remeber but I had fun alot of fun we'll just say that lol can't wait till next week espicially saturday cuz it is my b-day and I am goin to a park wit my mom and a bunch of my friends well ok only like 4 but yeah I am going to be 15.  yeah marin kept asking me where mikes hand was and yet she didn't ask me where my hands were but hey yeah I definatly say that today was very fun *wink wink* lol only certain ppl know what I am talking about.  yeah definantly alot more action but the movie was good better then I thought but hey I didn't expect anything from it but to be wit mike lol I cant' wait till wednesday

I might write more later

much love FeRnE